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Wow, what a busy, crazy year 2009 has been. It is really weird to look back at how different things are for me now. It’s also scary to look ahead, as I really have no idea where I am going. Before, I’d always had a long range plan. At this particular moment, I don’t. I have registered for classes next quarter, and fully plan to attend them. Don’t know much beyond that. The plan is to take some more electives in the spring, finish math in the summer, and transfer to WSUV and do the DTC program. For one reason or another, I’m not sure it is going to work. Probably because my school plans don’t ever seem to work right.
But looking back…..a year ago, I had almost no music from the bands I love now. I’d never even heard a full song from Nightwish, who is now basically my favorite band. I did not own my own camcorder, I used iMove instead of Final Cut Pro, GIMP instead of Pixelmator…I didn’t have a lot of my various cool toys, I had just finished 14 credits at Clark. Somehow, I have now finished 58 and maintained a B+ average doing it. Considering my grades in high school, I really do not know how the hell I managed to pull that off. I can still barely believe it reading that line.
Also, I’m IN MY TWENTIES now. Holy shit. How did that happen? And I know multiple people who have gotten married. I’M OLD. I learned untold amounts of stuff about computers, including hardware knowledge, all sorts of stuff about *nix, crypto, scripting, and other fun stuff. Oh, and I fixed my gaming rig, reclaiming my nerd honor. It now plays games and runs Folding@home. Oh God, Folding@home. Yet another new thing for me this year. I’ve found it is tons of fun. Not only do you get to earn points on how fast your computer is and how well you can use it, you earn the points because you are CURING CANCER. And the flu. And other diseases. I joined the fora at xkcd a year ago. That has now become my new “main forum” on the internet, and has finally succeeded in taking over the role Nsider played for my early teens. I have learned much from the people there, including the tip that finally led to my gaming rig getting fixed, and where I joined up with my Folding@home team.
I’ve also sort of re-found singing as a hobby. Although I’m still not sure I am that good at it…and I still haven’t found a church to go to. Not sure I want one. I am kind of happy being a “churchless Christian”. I don’t have to listen to other people just trying to shove their interpretations around, and fight against other peoples ideas, just to protect their misconceptions. It feels good. 
Ok, so, resolutions for 2010? Lots of intangible things….I want to be more confident in myself. I also want to stop unconsciously thinking things I really shouldn’t care about anyway…like fearing looking “gay” or “being beaten by a girl”. Personally, I don’t think those are things worth worrying over, so I want to break myself of it.
More tangible things….I want to help the Clark Film Club go somewhere. I will make a movie at some point this year. A real short, something to go on the demo reel. Like, with other people. That gets shown to other people.
And who knows what fun gear awaits in 2010….
